I cant keep doing this. I have no strength left. Its not how it used to be and everything is my fault. My fault we argue, my fault its not what it should be, my fault. Im too selfish, im too sensitive, and too emotional.
I have no one to talk to im so alone. My mom has another tumor. Shes gonna need surgery. I have no one…
Everyday im so sad. Tomorrow ill be sad. Next week ill be sad.
Life was too much, i couldnt take it anymore.
I cant help when or where my depression pops up. It sucks when youre sitting in a classroom or just trying to hang out with other people. The moods swings kill me tho.
But if youve been thru what ive been thru, you would be clinically insane not to be depressed.
I hate me some me.
Everyday I wake up, Im not excited. I see no point to my day. Everyday.
I have no one to talk to. Im sad.
Nothing makes me happy. The bad has entirely consumed the good. And it feels not even worth it to continue.
Im always sad. I’m mad. I’m mad that my situation isn’t improving. It’s getting worse. Everyday its something else. Why me? Why did God chose me? I’m trapped. When will it stop? I can’t take this anymore. I’m dying. Everyday. I don’t have anymore left in me. I can’t do everything be everything. I have no more left to give. There’s nothing more for me. I’m sad.
Who’s gonna help my little brother and sister? Save them from that man, or be there when they need me, or give them tough love when they need it?
And her. Who is gonna help her? What is she gonna do without me?
And I realized it’ll never be the same, but I wanna know, will it get any better? I’d be perfectly fine with running away from my problems except I have no where to go.
Who’s gonna save me? I’m so miserable I feel like I need to be alone in my misery, until I get right. I don’t want anyone by my side. I want someone to rescue me.
Im proud of the fact that I’ve never really let anyone completely in.
At the same time, its lonely here, and I’m fighting all the demons on my own.
